Sunday, August 17, 2008
It All Starts Now.
Final Year exams are in 6 weeks. Yes 6 WEEKS. That's how close it is.It all begins now. The sudden inspiration to do better and to study, i have no idea where its coming from. Search me.
I know from the sound of the words here, it may sound like a piece of cake to me, but i know its going to be hard. But i'm gonna do it. Discipline, Sacrifice? Yes those are the words.
I'm just gonna set some personal targerts for myself as i always do.
Here's what i plan to get :
Level Position : Less than 10.
L1 R5 Agg : 8
English : A1
Chinese : C5
Biology : A1
Physics : A1
Chemistry : A2
A Maths : A1
E Maths : A1
SS & Hist : A2
And even if I don't get it, I hope that would just make me even more motivated for the next lap.
It all starts now. Its Time.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
It's OK To Fail. Everyone Else Has.
For English - 58%
Chinese - 49%
Maths - 97.5%
Comb Humans - 73%
And theres the Science tests. For physics i failed. The rest are still being marked So yeah.
I'm gonna do better. And I will be back stronger than before. And thats a FACT.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
The Tavern (EL Extended Essay)
The Tavern
The sky was darker than usual. A dark blue shade dimly lit by the quiet presence of the moon. It hid itself behind the glowing clouds. The air was cold and the wind was strong. With the moon barely lighting up the path, you could see a tavern at the end.
He walked up the path. Making sure never to look behind, he approached the tavern. It was an old myth that was popular in the tavern. If you looked behind, you would never be able to make your way out of the tavern safely. It was a stupid myth, but he blindly believed. As he neared the entrance, the smell of alcohol became exceedingly strong. He continued. The tavern was surrounded by nothing. It lay by itself at the side of an old abandoned car park. It had never been used. No one knew why. The brick building, although rather small was his usual hangout after “work”. A place he would go to get away from the realities of life.
There were two windows that lay on both sides of the brown wooden door. They emitted a glow of yellow light. It looked to be having a good round of customers that night. He opened the door. It creaked. The music playing and the sound of beer mugs and the smell of alcohol all seemed too familiar. He was home. Or so it seemed.
“Adam! My best customer!” the bartender exclaimed. “Why the sad face my friend?”. Adam never knew why he said that. He always had had that face. He dreaded his life. He glanced at the clock that lay at the back of the pub. Eleven Fifty Eight. He glanced around. Nope. No one he knew was here tonight, unless you counted the strange and peculiar man, Sandler. He never talked to him anyway. Hoping onto one of the stools, he ordered the usual, a “scotch on the rocks with a twist”.
Then his phone rang. “Wife” the caller ID flashed. He had just gotten it installed the night before. Now he knew it was his wife calling. He pressed “dismissed”. He never wanted to talk to her. She should have known that by now. “Adam!” Moe called out, sliding the mug across the counter. “Why so sad today?” he asked. Adam never replied. Every time someone asked him that, flashes, traces of the past vividly recalled its way back into his mind. His face got heavy. He tried his best to withhold the tears.
His family was like a shattered glass irreparable. It began on a few months ago. He had just arrived back home from work. The dinner table was set nicely with the table cloth his wife and him had picked the day before. Their five month old daughter sat on the raised chair. She was grinning and laughing. He enjoyed the grins and laughs. It felt so peaceful. They sat down for dinner. He had some news to tell her. That day, he got fired from his job during an argument with the boss. He explained the situation to her.
The next day he went out of the house in search for a job. And then the real problem sufficed. He walked past a betting shop. He really needed the cash. He gave in to the temptation and walked in. It was a crowded place. He had never done this before. He looked around and blindly followed what the others were doing. Feeling foolishly confident and desperate, he threw his wallet into the bet. In a matter of seconds, he lost it all. All the hard work and the sweat he had put in. He felt emptiness in him and didn’t know what to do. He came home that night and made an alibi. He told her he had found a job. To Adam, it was just a temporary excuse until he really found a job. But he never did.
As he took gulps of his drink, all these images flashed in front of him. He felt guilty. He never wanted to return back home. Wait. This was his “home”. Adam spent most of his time here and only returned home to catch some sleep. He was out before the break of day. He finished the last drop of his drink. He placed his head on the counter and closed his eyes. His world spun before him. To him, his family was irreparable and could never be fixed. He had given up.
Then amid all the noise, he heard the door creak open. A scruffy man walked in. He stood tall, he wore a buttoned down jacket. He looked lost. He was crying. The bartender greeted him “What’s the problem my friend?”. The man sat down next to Adam. He ordered a beer. He soon started pouring his stories out to Moe, who patiently lent a listening ear.
Adam quietly eavesdropped on their conversation. The man had just lost his daughter and wife in an accident that morning. He didn’t know what to do now. And then it all made sense to Adam. The man’s family was truly beyond repair. His was not. He had just given up on his family. But his wife hadn’t. He cried. He got up abruptly and left. Outside the tavern, the air was still and the moon was much brighter. It had slowly uncovered itself and the sky was a nice shade of dark blue. He picked up his mobile phone. He dialled home. He had nothing prepared, and after all these months he could not just show up like that. He was wrong. But he had to try. He didn’t want to live his life knowing that it could have been repaired. Someone answered. It was her. For a moment, he never said anything. He was at a loss for words. “I love you and I’m coming home now!” he cried out. Then he started running. His shadow casted by the moon started to fade and fade till it was out of sight.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Minds Cafe 11 August 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Post Exams? Oh, I'm Sure.
On a different note, National day parade was like crap. Nothing interesting this time. The theme song this year was not that great. Only caught the fireworks from my house. However i think the people at the parade itself would beg to differ. They are there soaking up the atmosphere so I probable would feel the same. I wish i was there lor.
Today, went to school to get my BIO textbook to study for the test, but the school was closed. All the staircases and lifts were either locked or turned off. So sad. Ahh! Then went to eat lunch at Fish N Co with my older bro and my mum and went to do my spectacles. Also went to Borders and bought a book called A Spot of Bother by Mark Haddon. Right now I'm at home with a pile of homework stacked on my desk. Although it aint actually stacked up. It's a metaphor. You get it. lol. Letsee : Physics Co-op learning shit. English Extended Essay- BIO mindmaps. A Maths stuff, Emaths stuff, Chem co-op learning. OMG! I wanna just go to sleep.
Monday. Hope we got something planned out 2moro. Hopefully we can get enough people to come.
Principal's Forum. Sigh Edwin and I are Emcees for the forum. I still have to prepare a speech. DIE!
Friday, August 8, 2008
Sushi! Finally!
National Day today in school was ok. I gave away my spot as the staff team goalie against the graduating soccer team. So sad, wish i had played. Instead i went to help facilitate the Pri 6 classes coming over to the secondary school. It was ok la, won't say it was very fun. Can't have been as fun as soccer la. Went over to watch the boxing after that. School ended at 10.15am that day. After that went to help my juniors finish their project. Then went to play soccer cause had to kill time as we had a teacher's day meeting at 1230. After playing soccer, brought Arvind to the infocomm room to slack and lie in the aircon. At 1230 went to to the planning crap. Was a waste of time la.
Then off to SAKAE! wooohooo! Ate my ass off with Joel, Josiah, Matthew, Andrew, Andre, Jerald, Shaun and Bryan. We ate from 3-5.30. Haha. After that met up with Arvind and Zeke to watch the Mummy at Orchard Cineleisure with Matt, Jos and Andrew.
The Mummy wasn't something really enjoyable for me. I have no idea why, it just didnt feel exciting or interesting. Apart from me falling asleep which i think was partly because of the uninterestingness of the show and the fact that i slept late last night. Overall, 6/10 for the movie la.
Went for dinner later at Burger King, we were like totally engrossed in talking about a gay guy who was in the Burger King. We were laughing at him and like shock! cuz he was so so so gay. And i recognize him from our primary school. Although he was like 2 years older than us. But SO GAY!!! he was clutching this stuffed toy, he had this really really tight shorts and an ultra tight collared teeshirt
Then I went home. Watched abit of the Olympics.
Here are some pictures of today.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Eyes Wide Open
Anyway that was good news. Kinda happy. Never topped the level in maths before. The feeling is really awesome. Anyway our SGCC game is 90% done. Submitting soon.
Till next time.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
It's Game.
Missed the hockey finals today. Had to stay to finish out Singapore Game Creation Competition entry. We are gunning for gold this time. Its 1000 dollars! The due date is 8/8/08. So had to basically finish the game by today. Stayed back all the way until 7.30pm at school. We left cuz Josiah was wanting to go home. Managed to complet a very difficult part of the game, cuz something kept going wrong everytime i did it. But we managed! haha. Quite happy now. Our game only needs a few more touches before we submit!
I still want my sushi, which should be on friday! haha. Hope so!
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Chinese B? We'll See About That.
Anyway, had a match against ACS Barker. We lost. By quite abit. But only because this is a tryouts team. Its not the real team. He is gonna select from this squad. I hope me, arvind, claudie, zeke, dilip, ngai thai, andre and zul get in. Then it would be a dream come true for me! Haha. Fingers crossed.
There's still maths hw. Ahhh! CTs just ended and we have maths hw. This sucks! sucks sucks! Well i'm now trying to plan something on Friday afer National day celebrations at school. I cant wait! Its either Sakae, movie, or BOTH!
Our SGCC date line is on the 8th. WE are going full speed ahead to try get the game done by the 7th. We need that $1000 cash prize and the XBOX 360? i think so, there might be an xbox. but xbox is so old alrdy. PS3 better. haha
Right now i'm just bloody tired. Gonna eat dinner soon. After exams, don't really feel like a after exams...
Here's a picture of Josiah trying to pull an EMO face! haha i think its really realistic! lol.

That's all for today i guess.
Monday, August 4, 2008
I Need Sushi! And other Shenanigans.
So anyway, after that was suppose to go Sakae sushi for buffet at 3. So we had around 2 hrs to spare. And Josiah didn't wanna go cause he alrdy had sushi the day before. And so we didn't go in the end. So instead, i wanted to watch the Mummy with Andre and Jerald and Shaun. But cause Josiah had the free tickets, and he was gonna use them for the Mummy, i couldn't go. So sad. :'(
I was so looking forward to today. We were suppose to have SUSHI!!!!. And instead, I decided to go back to school and work on my SGCC game with Josiah. And being nice, i let andrew in the infocomm room, which is a really nice air conditioned room, with a couch and all, to let him lie down and slack while we do our work, cuz he had nothing to do. And instead he was being a bloody immature guy irritating us, and seeking attention by doing the stupidest of things, like touching one of my juniors's keyboard which resulted in his thumb drive being removed and causing them to lose their work data which they were working on. Then he went to step on a few important stuff that i told him not to step on and stuff. I'm not angry with him, but just a little irritated. You get the picture. I couldn't get anything done.
And me going to sakae with Andre i think spun off a little "thing" between Arvind. I dunno. But I can say this : It's not I dun wanna hangout with you guys, but Arvind, you don't eat sushi, and i have been planning this for like a week alrdy. I was just angry cause everything was called off. And pissed that my "post exam" day was left to doing work in the infocomm room while everyone went out to watch a movie. It's just abit irritating when your plans are canceled due to severely unforeseen circumstances. And besides I still hangout with you all. Its just its harder cuz u guys are not as free. Believe me when i say this : I am not "drifting" apart. Trust me.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Common Tests, Sentosa Plans.
Then on Monday we are supposed to go for Sakae Sushi buffet. Can’t wait. But we also want to make use of Josiah’s Bday Free tickets, which we got because of a cock up with the cinema over our seats.
We should be going to Sentosa on the 8th, but might have to change the date. sigh. sigh sigh.
Ok, I need to go back to revising! lol.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I Love The Whole World
Checkout this new Discovery Channel Commercial! It's like one of the best i've ever seen!
Common Tests and SPAs are in a few days. I'm starting to get really really nervous!
Can't wait for after CTs though! haha.
Monday, July 21, 2008
CTs in 2 Weeks, Dead on Arival
Found this really cool video
Thursday, July 10, 2008
The Present
I want to share a book i just read. It's a self improvement book. Titled The Present by Spencer Johnson. I had to do this review for class. So i might as well share it here. I really think this book really is great.
The Present by Spencer Johnson
What exactly is the present? I had to read the whole book to truly understand what it was. However, I’m going to summarize all different lessons learnt in the book The Present.
The Present is not the past!
It isn’t the future.
The Present is the Present Moment!
The Present Is Now!
You create your own present by what you give your attention to. The present, can be anything you want it to be. It could be a Soccer match, relationships, friendships, or you work. You can decide how you want the present to be.
Even In the most difficult situations, When you focus on what is right in the present moment, it makes you happier.
It gives you the needed energy and confidence to deal with what is wrong.
Three ways to fully utilize your present moment!
Be In the Present
Focus on what is right now. Determine your purpose.
Use your purpose to respond to what is important now.
Learn From The Past
Look at what happened in the past.
Learn something valuable from it.
Do things differently in the present.
Plan for the future
See what a wonderful future would look like.
Make plans to make it happen.
Put your plan into action in the present.
These, to me are the most important values I have learnt from reading The Present and I feel that if we fully understand it, it can make us successful. To end off,
Success is becoming who we are capable of being.
And progress towards worthwhile goals.
Each of us define for ourselves what it means to be successful.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Nothing Doing; Stuck In The Middle

Here is what they say about me...
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About the ENFP | Expert Quotes & Links |
| "They can't bear to miss out on what is going on around them; they must experience, first hand, all the significant social events that affect our lives." - The Portrait of the Champion Idealist (Keirsey) "ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it." - Portrait of an ENFP (The Personality Page) "Friends are what life is about to ENFPs, moreso even than the other NFs. They hold up their end of the relationship, sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals. ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone, especially on a regular basis." - ENFP Profile (TypeLogic) | "outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking..." - ENFP Jung Type Descriptions (similarminds.com) "ENFPs are energetic and enthusiastic leaders who are likely to take charge when a new endeavor needs a visionary spokesperson. ENFPs are values-oriented people who become champions of causes and services relating to human needs and dreams. Their leadership style is one of soliciting and recognizing others' contributions and of evaluating the personal needs of their followers. ENFPs are often charismatic leaders who are able to help people see the possibilities beyond themselves and their current realities. They function as catalysts." - ENFP - The Visionary (Lifexplore) "Ranked 1st of all 16 types in using social and emotional coping resources and 2nd in using cognitive resources. " - ENFP Facts (discoveryourpersonality.com) |
Just took a personality test. I think last time I was a ENTJ or something like that.
The results, i feel are so scarily accurate that it totally describes me...
Anyway, got picked to the soccer team in school. Things are going okay for now i guess. Thanks Arvind for reassuring me. Soccer looks to be fun but must put in commitment and must push myself during S&C.
2 Tests coming up next week, the Wimbledon finals suspended now, due to rain. they gonna put in a roof next year so no need to suspend if there is rain.
Anyway gonna spend youth day 2moro at a movie and then futsal! Maybe i'll take some pictures. haha.
Went to Sentosa last week for some social etiquette class and later class bonding. damn fun! haha. pictures...pictures...








Thats all for now...
Thursday, June 19, 2008
John Mayer - Say
Blue-collar mechanic Carter Chambers (Morgan Freeman) and billionaire hospital magnate Edward Cole (Jack Nicholson) meet for the first time in the hospital after both have been diagnosed with cancer. They become friends as they undergo their respective treatments.
Both are diagnosed with a year or less to live. Carter begins writing a "bucket list," or things to do before "he kicks the bucket." After hearing he has less than a year to live, Carter wads it up and tosses it on the floor. Matthew comes in the next morning and picks it up with other things that are on the floor. Cole finds it among the items and reads it. Cole pushes Carter (by suggesting he add things like seeing the world, sky diving, "fun things," etc.), and promises to finance the trip, as he is very wealthy. Despite the protests of his wife, Virginia (Beverly Todd), Carter eagerly agrees.
So thats basically the gist of the movie. Its suppose to be a very touching movie. John Mayer said he cried after watching it. haha.
So here's the song off the movie.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
The Boston Celtics Are Your 2007-2008 NBA Champions
Well Boston has done it again and I don't know what to say. There's not a single player on this team that you can hate (unless you're a Lakers fan) and you couldn't even really root against them (unless you're Jemele Hill). Screw all the particulars and stats....the Celtics put up 131 points (131!) and KG is certifiable. Let's get into the video....Just a great way for arguably three of the best players to never win a title, to take solidify their greatness in the league. And oh yes...you're certified KG...but who the hell cares? Be as crazy as you want to be tonight. Congrats again Boston and be careful tonight....there's a full moon out there. Oh and what I said earlier about hating all of you.....you booed Stu Scott, so we're cool!
Update: Here's Garnett's post game press conference complete with a question from Scoop Jackson!
Celtics Raise Banner 17
It started when my uncle bought me a Ray Allen jersey. He became my favorite player. And then I saw Garnett. The sheer determination to bring his team to the finals. He was my inspiration.
Having being a 12 time all-star and not having ever won a championship, it had to be time. 12 years he waited before he finally lifted the trophy. The emotions swept through me. I was happy for him. This was the reason i like Garnett. He never gave up his dream. I supported him for 8 years. And he never came close to winning it. I stuck by him and now i feel great. There is no word to describe it.
The Celtics deserved it. Ray Allen, Kevin Garnett, Paul Pierce, Rajon Rondo, James Posey, Eddie House. All of you guys own all. After coming back in game 4 from a 24pt deficit to win the game 97-91, showed me that impossible is nothing and that when i'm down at times, i will think of you guys and never give up no matter the circumstances. And here are the top 5 plays from that match!
Next on my list, Ray Allen Celtics Jersey! haha
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Operation Clean Sweep
End: 1413 hours
Operation Clean sweep
Lolx. Cleared my table and filed all my work! Took me 2h+. Quite happy now that i've gotten all the work filed and my desk cleard. It was a rigorous 5 step process involving 1. Breaking down the pile. 2. sorting the stuff. 3. Filing the work 4. Getting rid of the thrash 5. Organize.
Step 1 : Break down
Step 2 : Sort The Stuff
Step 4: Taking Out The Thrash
Step 5 : Organize to make nice!
Finally: The end result
you can actually compare the diff. Lolx now i can start with the hw.
Sigh. I don't feel like doing it anymore after doing that filing and organizing. Sigh. The irony.
Now To Get Started
It all started when it was after exams. I just piled all my textbooks and revision crap onto my desk.
Now its time to get started on the homework and, wait, there's no space to do it!
Its quite screwed up really. Now i just need a way to organize these things.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Worry Rock
I was making new friends. And my old friends, best friends thought i was spending too little time with them. I tried to fix it but i couldn't. Here's a song that will describe the situation now.
Another sentimental argument and bitter love.
Fucked without a kiss again and dragged it through the mud.
Yelling at brick walls and punching windows made of stone.
The worry rock has turned to dust and fallen on our pride.
A knocked down dragged out fight.
Fat lips and open wounds.
Another wasted night and no one will take the fall.
Where do we go from here?
And what did you do with the directions?
Promise me no dead end streets
And I'll guarantee we'll have the road.
But being, in my heart, still me best friends I placed them first before me. I was there for everyone of them when they had problems. Does that make it seem like i'm not their best friend? I've tried so much to fix all these problems. I make it a point to talk to them on the phone, go out with them, have lunch with them. But it never seemed to work. They can't accept the fact that in a friendship proccess, to build a new friendship takes time. So obviously making new friends take time and effort. and making this friendship strong takes even more time. So that's what i've been doing now. and i've been neglecting them. But as i said, i was still there for them when they needed me. Once this friendship proccess is done, then i can spend more time with them again. To me, they are still my best friends and when they are down i feel the same way too.
I just don't know the best way to fix this problem. I can't seem to fit everyone in the picture.
This song says everything i would do for my best friends. Even if i hate them at some point :
"Poprocks & Coke"
Wherever you go
You know I’ll be there
If you go far,
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere,
So I’ll see you there
You place the name
You know I’ll be there
You name the time
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I’ll be there for you
Where there’s truth
You know I’ll be there
Amongst the lies
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I’ll be there for you
If you should fall
You know I’ll be there
To catch the call
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there
I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I don’t care
I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you
I mean that in everyway possible. I have no idea at all. at all in my fucking idiotic head how to fix this problem.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Its All Coming To an End
Arvind got sick recently...thought it was dengue...but luckily his fever vanished on the 3rd day.
Wonder what to do on monday! Can't wait to resume to normal school life of slacking and having fun in school and playing soccer and basketball. 3 weeks i havent played computer and soccer. Cant wait.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
The Midst of Exams ; Under Pressure
I dun wanna tok about the papers. Its just too depressing. physics however was a relief. it was real easy.
Thats all for now. i just cant wait for the exams to end. End. end. end.


