Your Thoughts Have Taken Their Toll

Being bored does have its negative side effects. Random thoughts begin to enter your mind. Could they be for a good reason? This came at a totally random time, while i was just browsing the web and chatting.

Random Thought 1: What Happens if i go to VJC
Ok this would possibly happen if i do get 6points - bonus points. It would be like jumping of the top of a building and hoping that there would be a net at the bottom. Or so it seems to me. Everyone's been telling me to go to a better JC if i can do it. Well, let's just say i do get 6 - bonus points. VJ would be a fresh start. It definitely would be. After all, it has the CCA i want to join badly - floorball. The college life there seems pretty decent too, and its near my house which cuts travelling time to 10mins. 10MINS! I really want to go there. But there's something very strong stopping me from doing that. After 2 very memorable years in sec3 and sec4, I can't bear to be split up from all my friends i've made these 2 years.Unless of course they do well and join me (i doubt they would join la). As i think of this, i can't help but let my mind wander into the future, like in the next 5 years or so. Would my circle of friends remain tight as ever with the people i hold close now? Would they remain my best friends as they are now? Anything can happen, on my part and theirs. I just can't bear to take that risk and let time do ther rest. It scares the living shit out of me.

Random Thought 2 (although not so random anymore): What will happen if i go to SAJC?
Well firstly, i want to join a sport which SAJC cleary doesnt have anything i would possible join. And i don't count ODAC as a sport. And i don't think i want to play Goalie for soccer? Save myself from further embarrasment endured this year. Furthermore, so many people been telling me not to go SAJC and some of them are from SAJC. They really meant it, like if they had a better score they would have gone elsewhere. I can't say for sure now that if its true. Maybe it isnt that bad, but i'm sure there's a big difference in the environment in SAJC and VJC. Something tells me it would make a big difference if i chose one for the other. All i know is that i will definitlely be with all my friends there. and plus the uniform is like coooool... But who knows what may happen there? I may make new friends and they may make new friends and stuff.

Something tells me that if i do have to make this decision, i would tear myself apart doing so.
Maybe its best that i don't get 6 points and save myself all the trouble of deciding between the two. It would definitely make life much more easier for me right.

After seeing my older bro being commissioned as an officer, i am inspired to become an officer too. But i guess that would all lie in how i handle future challenges. One of them would be coming very soon wouldn't it.

I really don't know how i'm going to actually decide over this. Suddenly there's a really influencial force that's pulling me towards VJC (even though i quietly ruled out VJ during the past 3 months or so because i felt so deeply attached to the people around me) somehow other things are falling into play and i don't how it's gonna turn out.

I think the following kinda mean something to me now...

"Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul"

Cherish those memories and may they last forever

I'm having a really weird pain in my stomach area. It hurts and I can't sleep. So i'm on my bed stoning, with my laptop.

Was really really bored, so went to read the older posts from my blog and Adam's blog. It's kinda funny when you look back. You get that very nostalgic feeling. A bitter sweet and warm feeling or sensation. When you look back at the past, memories and stuff. All the stupid things you have done.

When i was reading the posts, looking back at how we came to slowly prepare ourselves for the O's, i truly miss those times where we studied together, played soccer together after studying, procrastinating together. Haha. Having lunch together in the middle of studying. I remember those Chem lessons on Saturday very clearly. After chem lesson, we would have lunch chit chat about O's and random stuff, then we'd go back to school to study/slack and stuff haha. I remeber those times where we tried to convince each other to go jam after studying. All those times at POMO hahaha. Those were good times. lol.

I remember very vividly a period at the start of the year where i had a falling out with Arvind, looking back at things, haha i can only laugh at myself and the whole irony of the situation. It seems that i have learnt so much from this incident and that things can only be looking up from this day on.

All the quarrels, disagreemets, laughter, enjoyment that all of us had together while studying, i will truly miss. All the friendships that i have forged and strengthened over the course of the year, let's hope they remain tight, if not stronger.

However, there are things that have happened over the year that make me sad. Because i'm trying to fix it now, but its not that easy. A falling out with a group of close friends that i kinda neglected. I'm sorry guys and i hope that you will forgive me. I hope that things can return to normal before its too late and all of us move on.

It's all the little stuff, that we tend to miss out, that we will dearly miss when we part. Getting emotional now is kinda strange, because it seems i'm one of the few who get these weird sensations. Maybe i attach myself too closely to some stuff.

We are nearing the end of a very very fruitful year i must say, and it makes me sad that some of us will part ways. But i hope that wherever we go, we will always cherish those memories that we share and make the last forever.

I'll have to make a promise to myself : Whatever happens next year, I'm not gonna leave you guys behind. I will, to the best of my ability, remain best friends with all of you guys. <3 you guys :D

GAY GAY GAY.

Check!

Came back from Korea last week. Trip wasn't bad...although the food was. The tour brought us to lotsa crappy crappy places to eat. Eyuck!!! Crap. Totally. Went to see lots of historic sights and stuff. The tour guide spoke Chinese. (yeah...just great...) I could understand him only half the time. So i got kinda turned off. Had lots of fun talking to the fellow tour ppl. Haha this tour had lots of children around the same age, so it was really easy to mix around :D. +points. hahaha.
I shall post pictures soon.... soon.

Spent too much money this week. Bought Halo 3: ODST and L4D 2. I'm gonna go job hunting tomorrow :D . Haha but meeting JK for gym and swimming in the morning first.

Still gotta go sign up for guitar lesson! i think i've learnt on my own for too long. haha. Haven't gymed in 2 weeks. Can't wait to get a move on.

So far, nothing much has been happening... went to Sentosa the day i came back from Korea. Got sunburned bad. hahaha. it's like healing now.

Ok...this post is kinda lame. Totally.

Say What You Need To Say

In light of recent events, i think its important that we say what we need to say right now when we have the chance to, remove those grudges, anything u ever wanted to say to someone but didn't because you didn't dare to. I did and i'm not done yet.

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .

Say what you need to say [x8]

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say [x24]

Hit Me With Reality

So the O's are finally over. I don't really wanna talk about it cause i don't see a reason why we should haha. It's over. :D now we just wait. Grad Nite was yesterday. JK, Jerald, Adam, Mervin and I performed I'll Be There For You on stage. I thought we played the whole song quite well with only a screw up at the end when we added in another verse. It's my first time perfroming onstage on such a large scale...and i think the experience gained from this is priceless. With merely a few practices after prelims, squeezed into the middle of our studies, i thought all of us did a good job. I never knew that we could pull it off.

I just wanna thank , in no particular order :

Joel - I think the band owes you big time. Thanks for filling in for Russell even though you had no idea how to play bass and you didnt need to help us out at all. You performed the bass to near perfect, it sounded really good and it gave the song its grooove! hahaha. Love you man <3 style="text-align: center;">Jerald on drums, Adam and Jk on keyboards and Mervin on Lead guitar and i was on rhythm and vocals.

The cheekos, lol AKA The almost FuturePlan. haha

and of course, Russell, you will always be an FP. haha. where's MATT?!?!?

There are more pics on Edwin's camera that i'll post soon.

When i came home, walked into my room. sat on my bed. Then i was like ... "the O's are over. Now what?" I guess we focus on the end so much that when it ends, it all seems too surreal. It's hard to come to terms with the fact that soon, we will all part our ways and lead a life of our own. Or will it be the opposite and things remain hardcore solid till the end? Only time will tell.

Today was different. I guess today was the first Saturday i didn't have to go to school for any lessons. Or any tuition. haha. Was defintely a weird feeling. I woke up, picked up my instruments from school and brought them home. Then joined JK, Yau, Russell, Clayton and Josiah to gym for about 2 hrs, then we went to swim for about an hr. Felt pretty good after the whole workout. First workout in how many months. Need more of them haha. After that, had subway with Clayton, Russell and JK. Went home after that, to find solo and merv at my house. Lol then we went to catch the Singapore vs Thailand Match. The match was crap. The crowd was pathetic. They jeered the Singapore team when they made mistakes... and cheered when Thailand scored the 3rd goal.

So tomorrow will be a new day. I need to draw up a list of things to do. Just for fun. So i can max out the holidays. Class chalet is on the 16-18th. Haha can't wait.

Who Says

It's already 2 weeks into the O's. I'm trying to stay positive and hoping that 6pts is still out there for me to grab. Because IT IS! So far most of the papers have been quite manageable. yeah.
So tomorrow is Biology paper, and the last of all my paper 2s. Then next week is Paper 1s and then IMMORTALITY is ours. yeah.

Mindless wanderings.

Element : An element is a substance made up of only 1 type of atom that cannot be chemically broken down into simpler substances.

Atom: An atom is the smallest particle of an element that has the same chemical properties of that element.

Molecule: A molecule is the smallest form of an element or compound that can exist independently.

Compound: A compound is a pure substance that is made up of two or more elements chemically combined in a fixed ratio.

Mixture: A mixture is a substance that contains elements and/or compounds that are not chemically combined together.

Drying Agents: Conc. Sulfuric Acid, Fused Calcium Chloride, Quick Lime (CaO)
*Quick lime used to dry Ammonia.

Soluble gases: Ammonia, HCL, Sulfur dioxide
Insoluble Gases: Carbon dioxide, Carbon monoxide, Nitrogen Gas, Hydrogen Gas, Oxygen (sparingly soluble)

Globalization:
Economic Effects:
Increase in Standards of Living:
1. Countries that are globalizing enjoy increase in standards of living. These countries earn more revenue through foreign investments.
2. Governments in turn use this revenue to improve healthcare, transport, housing and education infrastructure.
3. People living in globalizing countries also have wider choices of consumer goods to choose from due to free trade. the increase in lifestyle choices leads to better quality of life.
(L) Therefore, globaliztion leads to an increase in standards of living as the country's core infrastructure such as healthcare and education will improve.

Increased competition among nations:
1. TNCs seek out new locations to invest in to lower their cost of production.
2. Govts. in turn compete with one another to attract TNCs to invest in their country.
3. the increase in competition among natiosn leads to growth in the economy where infrastructure is more developed.
(L) Therefore, globaliztion has led to an increase in competition among nations where governments have to improve their country's infrastructure to attract theses TNCs, which has leads to growth in the economy.

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i'm in my room and gazing at the ceiling,
and all i get's feeling,
that its closer everyday y'know

It's a sprint to the finish line.

It's the final lap of our 4 year race to the big O's. 38 days left. 38! No more procrastinating, no more slacking, no more day dreaming.

Prelims results are like the worst ever, or at least the most shocking. I really screwed up my chemistry paper. I got 9/30 for the essay question. 9! I was totally expecting a B3 or an A2 at least. I ended up with a B4. Gonna have to refresh on my basics for chem. Read and reread Chem Yeo's notes until they are imprinted in my memory and attempt the ten year series.

Physics was badly done. Although i got one of the higher marks, i thought it could have been much better. Made stupid errors here and there and left out the last page. Niceness. Plan for physics? Well i think my concepts are quite there already so i'm just gonna attempt O' level papers. Then memorize notes 2 weeks before the O's.

Biology was an A2. Not exactly satisfied with the result. I think it's due to the fact that i did the essay parts badly. Didnt really study for certain chapters and those came out. I'm making Bio notes now...just finished. I think i have about 4-5 more chapters to go. Doing them selectively.

English was an A2. I think my paper 1 saved me. I need to work more on my comprehension. I got a 11 or 12 out of 25 for the compre. Summary was surprisingly good this time. Although i think i was lucky. I need to practice more for that. Plan for English? 1 practice paper a week and 1 compo a week. Time for SJJ to have no life.

Combined Humans was an A1. Although i have to redo some notes but i should be fine. Plan for CH? One set of SBQ's a week. Yeah...LWL...you're gonna have no life now.

Amaths and Emaths were a disapointment. Although both were A1s, they werent in the safe 90% range. Never made so many careless errors before. Must cut down on those!

So the plan is simple. 4 weeks for making notes and doing papers, 2 weeks before O's for hardcore memorizing. Hope that works out fine.

I can do it. I will do it. I shall get that 6 points...You're MINE!

Now If I Were That Puppy...

Just Believe.

Alright. Let's set things straight. It's now or never. I can only do this once, and i'm gonna do it right. 7 weeks left to "O" Levels. No more distractions...nothing. It's gonna be crazy, it's gonna be mad, and I cannot be more ready for this than ever.

That being said I need to set certain restrictions from here on. I shall remove the computer, the guitar and limit my computer time to 1hr on weekends and 1/2 hr on weekdays. Need to organize my study schedule and prepare all the necessary stuff for MugFest '09. Let's see...a stack of foolscap, all my prelim past year papers...and coffee? Haha.

I think I shall try and not study at home. I really think my house isn't the most conducive place to study at. But i don't want to study with more than 4 people. I think 2 or 3 people is the best. Anyways I need to find a good location. School sounds cool for now because i can't think of anywhere else which would not be a distraction at the same time.

I can do this. This is my only chance and I'm not gonna blow it. Endure everything for the next 7 weeks. Just 7 weeks left! I can do it! I know I can and I WILL.

p.s. I think i will keep of Facebook seriously this time round. This is the final lap of the 4 year race and I'm not gonna let that get in my way.

I'll Be There For You....

Alright. I'm here now. Where should i start? uhhuh! Prelims just ended. Feeling a little lack of confidence in physics, chem and amath. Physics paper 2 I panicked cause i think i lacked time, so i coudnt think properly then i left the last page out. Chemistry i thought the paper was just weird. Like the way the questions were set. I can't really grade myself for paper1 though. As for Amaths, i think paper 1 i did rather ok but for Paper 2 i'm hoping an A2 perhaps? worst b3.

Anyways results should be out next week latest i think. Gonna take it easy till next Monday. Next Monday will be the beginning of the craziest 5-6 weeks of my life. I think i'm just gonna whack past O lvl papers everyday. I shall try and cram at least 2 if not 3.

I'm afraid that i can't concentrate at home now. If i lock the computer away, i will still walk around and like day dream at home. Zzzz unless i go to school...hmm i think that sounds conducive.

Hmmm what else should i talk about...yeah ok so FuturePlan. is taking part in the Saints Got Talent thing for Grad Nite. but we are facing some kind of a problem. We are missing a bassist. Russell doesnt want to play now for god knows why. Unless WE (that means you, Adam, and Mervin!) can convince him that 2 -4 hrs of practice wont harm his studies at all.

JK, Jerald, Adam, Mervin, Solo, Bart went shopping for Grad Nite outfits yesterday. Spent 6hrs where our legs became freaking jelly. Bought a shirt, a pair of pants and a vest. JK, Jerald and Adam bought the same stuff only different design and brand and Adam didn't buy a vest, and Mervin only bought a pair of pants cuz he thought that vests were gay and is not trying to toy with the idea that it ISNT gay. Yeah.

Oh yes...i almost forgot. haha. Chinese 'O' Level results came out during our prelims 2 weeks ago. I got a C6 which is a pass. Was very relieved to find out that i passed. Although i kinda wanted to retake cuz a C6 definetely won't look good on my report card...admist all the As...AHEM, i thought that my chinese foundation was never strong so it be hard to even maintain a C6 if i don't study, which is what everyone tells me to do, retake and dont study for it, but i think i would fail if i did that. So i think my time is better spent polishing my other subjects.

I realized that alot of people think i want to go VJC in the future but somehow deep inside (yeah...deep) i kinda feel that SAJC sounds better to me. I don't know why. Maybe cuz of the fact that most of us would be going there. But my mum really really wants me to go to VJC saying that a good JC would make alot of difference in the future. Also, i notice that SAJC's standard drop by quite abit. And my neighbour (who's from SAJC) told me i shouldn't go there if i can. She says that alot of the experienced teachers are quitting SAJC and very few teachers are left with at least 5 yrs of experience (this is for GP and civics tutors only, she didn't say about the science stream cuz she's in art). Abit of a dilemma here. But i think i shall focus on getting as low as i can get first without considering anything and leaving everything open.

So the next few weeks will be crazy. I hope i can come up with some kind of mugging plan.

Crazy is the forecast for the next 5 weeks....

f=ma / atq+2(st+ev)+ pp

Prelims have begun! That's a good thing? A Maths paper was today. I thought it was rather easy. Could do every single question. I think i got careless at some parts. So definetely not 100% haha. Left out 1 part qn cause i couldnt figure out how to do it. Then when i realized how, 2 mins left and i was like AHH! So i just stoned till the time was up. :(

Been mugging like a retard. Can't wait for prelims over so i can have some time to relax abit before going into study craze again. Need time to get a new guitar!

Back to prelims again. SS and Physics paper 2 tomorrow. Not so worried for SS. Only physics paper is really worrying me. Haha.

Now if you don't mind i have to get back to memorizing formulas...



no. not physics formulas you dummy...



Social studies source based formulas...


Gotcha there didn't i?


I bet it did. ;)


Admit it.

they say love is patient.

It's been so many months but i still can't feel your hands.
Will time roll by knowing we will always be apart?
Or will time be sane,
and let us meet together again.
For it's the hard times like these,
that you enter my heart.
It's you that keeps me going
in hope that you'll be there at the end.
If love is patient,
you'll be there at the end.

The Storm Approaches

Almost 2 weeks since my previous post. Don't expect a long one here. I realized out of sudden realization (ok, that sounds weird) that i didn't post pics of my birthday on here. I should be doing that soon.

Lots of things have been happening the past few weeks. I shall try and remember them for sake of pinning them down on this blog. Hmm...

Last Saturday Bryan had a chalet and alot of 4SA went. Had BBQ and a few of stayed over played cards and watched stupid movies and wrestled on 4 beds that we joined together in the living room area. Haha.

Been preparing alot for the upcoming English oral exams the past weeks. We had a mock exam today. I think i did quite well. Or at least i like to think that i did. Phy, Bio, Chem SPAs coming up next week. National day is next week. Prelims are in 2 weeks!!

Prelim orals start on Monday! Hope that goes as planned. Trying to rush prelim studying to finish most of the topics briefly in 2 weeks. Then concentrating again on them again after Prelims. I shall try and stop studying by 19 October! Hope i can!

I really can't wait for Friday the 13th in Nov. Chem paper 1 also known as the LAST PAPER. I really wonder how it would feel like at the moment they say "time's up. Put down your pens" haha. Imagine that!

Snap back to the present! Don't drift away! Still alot to study! GO GO GO!

The Clock is Ticking

25 Days left to Prelims. I think i really will not be going online anymore unless i really have to do notes or type stuff out. I think i'll only access facebook at the end of the week for less than an hour. Access the computer only on weekends and on Saturday nights.

I should try and finish the entire physics syllabus by this week. I'm gonna try. Try.

Check out the new NDP song for 2009. It's by Electrico. I think its a healthy change from the old "anthem" like songs. So tell me what you think yeah.

Wake Up The House Is On Fire

It's been bugging me for almost 2 weeks. I just thought posting it would make me feel better. I been feeling quite down lately. I'm doing pretty well hiding it. It's good for them they say. Not good for me. Well maybe cuz i don't have the guts to tell that person. Or maybe i'm just afraid of repercussions. I don't want it to happen again? Well i really am confused on what to do.

I need that quiet place in Cinderella Man at the top of that hill overlooking the city and just screaming my lungs out there and just letting it out.

I just feel like screaming really really loudly into the open air. But there doesn't seem to be a place to do this. I really feel like just letting it all out. It's like a mixture of anger and frustration and sometimes a "am i over reacting" feeling. I think the latter may be quite true. I really really need to talk to someone. Getting harder to concentrate on revision and i just need to get it out. I gotta tell that person...soon. Before it eats me up from inside. Which i think it's already attempting.

Don't worry i ain't turning emo. It's just one of those times...y'know only this been quite long already...sigh.

He Fell Asleep Again...I think

Ok i been doing History notes with Jerald. It's 11.56. His last msg on msn to me was at 11.16. He never said anything and now he's not replying. It happened on Friday because he fell asleep at the table. Now i'm thinking its happening again!

WAKE UP JERALD!

Ahh nvm. I'm off to bed anyway. He's gonna get it tomorrow.

You Gotta Hold On!

"As the sun beats down
On the halfway house
Has my conscience beating
The sound in my ear
The will to persevere
As I reach the break of the day

When you lost all hope and excuses
And the cheapstakes & losers
Nothing's left to cling onto
You got to hold on
Hold on to yourself"

Yep. We are almost halfway there, gotta find the will to perservere and hold on! It's gonna be a tough road ahead!

Just finished the entire Trigonometry chapter in the ten year series. Did about 80% of the 32 questions. Feels good to have accomplished that. Over 2 days. Gonna concentrate on the weaker topics first. To maximize my output. Somehow, when you put things in your mind onto paper, or basically transferring them to another location, i.e. here. Speaking of which, today Matthew asked what i.e. meant and well we weren't too sure either. So i took the liberty of getting it looked up.

Apparently, they all come from latin terms.

• "e.g." Exexpli Gratia - for example
• "etc. Et cetera - and so forth
• "i.e." Id Est - that is
  

So there you go. I never knew they were latin. Haha. And as i was saying, i thought transferring plans from head to somewhere physcal helps play out the whole plan much easier. So here goes:

Stuff to do today:
1. Finish 4.2 Notes.
2. Revise Organic chem
3. Buy stationary and Chem TYS (paper by paper)

I think that's enough for one day. And if there's time, Kinematics - physics.

Well 33 days left. That leaves me with very little time. I hope i have the strength to pull through. I WILL! TAEBANG! Oh and speaking of which, i have 290 WON! I think that's 33cents singapore.

Sing Us The Song of the Century

"They're playing the song of the century
Of panic and promise and prosperity
Tell me a story into that goodnight
Sing us a song for me "

Ok so oral was pretty much screwed. Plastic surgery was the topic. Can you believe that? And i didn't mention MJ. Ahh screw it. It's over, must get over it. Went to blow of steam after oral with Solo, Clayton and Bing at LAN. Played DotA and L4D.

Past few days been quite hectic. Doing lots of maths in class and after school. Just realized a few days ago how close the Prelims is. Closer and closer...running out of time. Gotta mug already.
Already planned out study tables and checklists. Gave Solo a copy cuz he said he wanted one.

Watched the MJ Memorial the other day. Very sad ending. His daughter went up on stage and said something and cried.

So it's gonna be very very crazy the next few weeks. So lesser posts yeah? Lesser facebook, lesser everything.

Bye...for now.

Touch of the Tongue, Teeth to the Lips

Chinese Oral is tomorrow. They are out having sushi. It's youth day. I'm at home. Practicing Chinese. Yeah. Sounds about right. Freaking nervous now. Can't seem to get any work done. Wasted the entire weekend. Didn't do much. Managed to get a teeny weeny bit of revision done.
Can't wait for oral to end.

watch! the last part is the best (5:11) ---------------->

The 2ND MINI ALBUM!

SNSD released their 2nd mini album in less than 4 months after the 1st mini album release. That's fast. Really fast. Well it's a mini album after all. I got the album yesterday. And as expected i think they rushed the release of the album. SM entertainment should have taken their time with the next album than jumping the wagon just to monopolize on the Gee Syndrome.

Ok fine, i won't say the album is just ok. It's not that bad. I think Girlfriend is my favourite so far for the new album. The last song is...BLEAH. Got some guy singing...don't even know who.

Ok ok must talk about the new term. With the H1N1 precautions and all, they switched back to the classroom system. Originally we were in the homeroom system, where you got from one class to the other for different subjects. Right now we're stuck in the same room the whole day! It's like primary school all over again!

The school canteen also changed. ALOT. All the previous canteen vendors are out. Only the malay stall left. They have 2 noodle stalls now and a japanese stall. And sad to say, the japanese stall food isn't the best. I thought it was ok considering the price 2.30-2.90 which is way cheaper than outside, so can't complain. I heard the food portions are now smaller and everyone's going back to the malay stall! Cause its the same as before. :D

Been staying back in school till 7 doing homework, playing frisbee, getting distracted. I think we need to procrastinate less and make our work time more effiecient.

O level chinese oral is on the 7th. Can't wait to get it over and done with!

Ok 1st post for the week. Which leaves me with 2 more posts for this week. So BYE BYE

BOOHUGGY!

Murder City

"Desperate
But not hopeless,
Desperate
But not helpless"

School starts tomorrow. 4 more months to go to Os. 3 months to prelims. Haven't really been studying this June. Which is a big blow right now. Gotta start cramming, mugging, studying, they all mean the same thing. Need to blog less. Play less. Get distracted less. STOP PROCRASTINATING!

Needless to say but i think i'm really screwed if i don't start tomorrow. Yep. NO FACEBOOK! Less blogging! Play Left 4 Dead, Sims 3 only on Saturdays and Sundays AFTER I FINISH STUDYING! Gonna be very difficult. The holidays surely destroyed the studying momentum.
MSN only after 9? Yeah i shall try! Sleep earlier!

MUST START STUDYING! So don't expect daily posts. Maybe thrice a week? or twice a week. We shall see.

Anyways you gotta watch this. Awesome piano solo at the ending!

Under The Iridescent Sky

So Sentosa was not bad. Although it it was drizzling on and off. Played Frisbee and abit of American Football. Then went into the water for awhile. Did random stuff in the water...by then it was already 4+. So we showered, changed and went to play LAN at Park Lane for about 2hrs. Then had dinner at Long John Silver. Then went home. Wasn't the best Sentosa outing but it was ok.

Etude and the Genie MV came out!! Check it out! The leg moves are kinda weird but SNSD always Fighting!! Can't wait for the full album release!



Today went to school to clean up the classroom with Adam and Mervman. Then slacked alot and had lunch at KFC. Was mkaing a joke about how KFC didnt have "non fried" stuff. Cuz i was having a minor sore throat. Lol. So i had the salad thingy. But it had fried chicken in the end. so to hell with it. Then Bryan Wong called, asked if we wanted to watch a movie. Me and Merv wanted to watch a movie today anyways so we all went. Bart came later and he joined us too. So we headed down to Orchard to catch it.

Loved the movie. 21 Guns played like 4 times during the show! haha. Nice one. I'm not a follower of the Transformers cartoon show and stuff but the movie was good. Effects were stunning, the plot was hilarious and serious at the same time. The Twin Autobot guys were damn funny. And the Sector 7 agent guy from the previous show was hilarious too. Lots of funny mentions like Swine flu and Obama in the movie.

After the movie, went to Hereen HMV to find SNSD albums cuz we read on Soshi that they stocked it there. Searched for about 15 mins in the Korean Music section. couldnt find!!. Went to the counter, they said they only sold the 1st album but it was out of stock. AHHH!

Then we went to Taka and had dinner there. Ate KOREAN! lol. On the way out met Andrew, Claudie, Dil and Josiah at Ajisen. lol. Coincidence? haha. They just watched Transformers too.

Ok it's getting late now. Enjoy Etude! Gotta finish holiday homework tomorrow and do abit of revision!! Then on monday, BACK TO SCHOOL! Lol. No morning assemblies, temperature taking...all seems too familiar. Except the assemblies part. ok that was random and lame...

oh ya almost forgot. Michael Jackson passed away today. So sad :(. yeah that was it.

One. Twenty-One Guns.

21 guns music video came out yesterday! check it out.



New SNSD song came out yesterday! Tell Me Your Wish (Genie). The rest of the album comes out on the 25th! Wheee! :) Can't wait! NOOOO they just postponed the release to 29th june! OMGWTH.

Watched Drag Me To Hell just now with Solo, Adam and Mervman at PS. It was scary/funny in a way. Like they trying to make a joke out of it? It was quite stupid in a way. Although some parts were quite freaky.

Day before, went with Adam to see Mr. Success at PS. Guess who? Haha. I think he totally nailed it with her o.O! Way to go Merv! Tabang!

Tomorrow SENTOSA! I hope i feel ok and it doesn't rain!

Marine Girls Mania

SNSD FIGHTING! Girls' Generation is releasing their 2nd Mini Album on the 25th! That's a few days away! Can't wait!!!! Hope it sounds like a mix of their new and old music. It would sound weird actually...lol. Love their new Marine Girls theme.




Watched the last episode of Cinderella Man yesteday. It was like a super happy ending. Abit to surreal for my liking. And i think it would have been better to progress the ending abit more slowly and extend the series by a few more episodes. It was like they were rushing the ending and couldnt wait to end the show. DAMN SAD THAT IT ENDED!!! :( But i loved the ending. Ironic isn't it? lol. Yoona 성공!

Made my easiest $60 today. Gave out flyers for Bryan Wong's mum who released some kind of childrens' book. Gave out at Parkway and Takka for 3-4 hours. Lol sadded that Andre couldn't come haha. He did last week already anyways. Tomorrow gonna do 1 hour...and $40!!! It's gonna be the easiest 100 bucks i'm ever gonna make.

Came back from Malaysia yesterday. Was quite tiring. All in all, didn't do much there. Just walked around shopped abit and that's pretty much it.

I bought The Time Traveler's Wife today. Can't wait to get started.

DRAG ME TO HELL ANYONE?

KL Day 2

Woke up today damn tired! Watched episode 15 of Cinderella Man until 3am. Call me crazy. I couldn't wait any longer! 2nd last episode! Woke up had breakfast at some cafe nearby. Then went back up, slack awhile. Then headed off to Mid Valley Mega Mall. Walked around for about 2 hours, had lunch, then i met Adam and his bros in the arcade. lol. Played a few games with him, his treat. wheee! Lol thanks anyways =D. Bought 2 shirts at Topman which were on discount. Then my bro bought a pair of shoes. >.> even though i was sure you could get that in SG. Went back to the hotel at 5+. Rested, then left the hotel at 6.30 for dinner at Pavillion, which was a lot like Paragon like that i think. Had Thai food! Wahahaha.

SNSD releasing their 2nd Mini album! Can't wait!! 25 June! And they recently had a photoshoot. Totally cool theme! Marine Girls! Wahaha. Not bad not bad...AND EPISODE 16 IS OUT ALREADY! OMG OMG OMG!! LAST EPISODE OF THE SHOW! I'm streaming it now but its taking quite long. Maybe have to watch tomorrow.

So yeah, leaving tomorrow in the morning i think. Stopping by malacca for peranakan lunch!! YUMMMM!!!! Then ♥♥ HOME SWEET HOME! ♥♥

KL Day 1

1st day in KL. Nothing interesting. Met up with some friends and had dinner with them till like 11+. Arrived in KL quite late. Apparently, we switched hotels. Staying in this hotel in KLCC (for free!) . We can see the twin towers from here. hahaha. Kk gtg off and watch episode 15!

See if I can meet Adam tomorrow. That's if i go to Mid Valley Mega Mall. We will go la, but its whether we go at the correct time? haha.

Road Trip!

Wheee! Going to KL tomorrow, coming back on the 19th! 3 days. Staying at the Dorsett Regency Hotel. So if anyone's looking for me (like there will...) you know where i'll be =P

Photo Fun!

Went to school again today. Along with Jack, Cheng En, Solo, Mervin and Kyaw Min. Did some maths, then went out for lunch. Me and Kyawness had MACS and the rest went to the coffee shop. Haha YESH!! i got my black glass! Last one! Wheee! I have all now. wahahaha. Had a little dodgeball fun in the class for awhile mid way through studying :P. 3 V 3 from one end of the class to the other end, throwing this sponge ball. Haha was quite fun, drawing up tactics and stuff. lol!

Then Jerald came after lunch at about 3+ with Andre and Bryan Wong came for fun. Jerald brought his new MacBook. Helped him set some stuff up, had fun exploring this TrackPad thingy. Cool shit. Also played with his PhotoBooth application! haha.

look into the horizon...

different perspectives

comic connection

blah!

omg! There too many! (can you spot solo?)

Went home at about 5+. Then played Sims 3, parents came back from China at about 7.30++. Had dinner, then had chinese tuition and then played more Sims 3. Just showered and going to sleep soon.

A second, a minute, and hour, a day goes by

Check out this short film my cousin Si Rong showed me today. It's very nice. I loved it. Much like the You Belong With Me Video by Taylor Swift.





Today was very much wasted. Woke up, watched Toy Story! (It's been a long time since i watched it. I think it was my favourite movie when i was younger, i heard they are making a third installement) Then tried to do some A Maths, which i was successful for about 1/2 hour. Then played Sims 3, DotA(with myself, trying to reacquaint myself with the game, been almost 2 years since i played it) then played Rock Band unplugged on the psp. Watched Memoirs of a Geisha on channel 5 later, then played more Sims.

See how i wasted the day. Perfect. Shit. Tomorrow must study!! at least 4 hours!! Leaving for KL on Wednesday till Friday. So must try do as much work in the next 2 days! GO GO GO!

Pelham PC 123

Friday 12/06/09

Went to the PC Show yesterday at 2+. Met Mervin and Jerald for lunch at Marina before that. Had Yoshi. Jerald was at the show since 1 with his dad. Then we took a look at all the flyers that Jerald had collected while we ate.

Met Andre, Bing and Chin Yan at 2.45 at the Convention centre. Me, Mervin and Jerald were looking for Laptops, Andre was looking for MP3s...So we kinda split up. Me Mervin Jerald went around the whole show, collecting laptop brochures and finding out more about some of the laptops. Jerald was interested in getting a Macbook. Then we met up with Andre, Bing and Chin yan at 6+, sat down for awhile and as usual did stupid stuff like steal andre's slippers and stuff...

Andre

Jerald with his KEWL look.

Mervin reviewing the brochures

Bing Hui complaining his legs were tired

Chin Yan...ok i don't know what to say here

We were there till like 6pm then we left with a narrower choice of laptops, after taking a look at all of them. Had dinner with Jerald at Thai Express and then went up the esplanade roof to take some picures (wasn't my idea!) Then we went down to the foyer area and listened to a local live performance by this Indie/ Rock N' Roll band. Not bad at all. Then Jerald started drifting into the Grad Night stuff and how he wants our band to play. lol. After that went home.

View from Explanade Roof

Saturday 13/6/09

Went to school at 9am. Solo wanted me to go school to study with him. But yet again he was late as usual >.> he came only at 10.30? Jack and Cheng En also came. Was half productive only. Played soccer in class and Solo played DotA in class again. lol. Adam came later and played more soccer.

Then we me and Adam left at 1.30pm to meet Mervin for a movie. Watched Pelham 123, although me and adam didn't mind watching Drage Me To Hell was it? But Mervin chickened out. Haha so ended up watching Pelham 123 which was not bad, very thrilling and ALOT of F WORDS. lol like at least 1000. Then followed Mervin to the PC SHOW to meet his parents and get his laptop. In the end after much thought, Mervin got this Gateway PC that had good specs.
Then Mervin's parents treated us to Jack's Place! Yummy...lol Adam couldn't finish his food so i had extra takings :D.

I love the Gateway box, damn COwOL

Mervin's Gateway...to happiness

Cam whoring...it's a disease

So in the end, Jerald actually got a Macbook! Adam got his Vaio and Mervin got his Gateway. And for me, well, i have to wait till my parents come back from China. But by then the PC SHOW over. Haiz but my mum still said she will get me one...fingers crossed**.

Dangerously Sweet

I got Rock Band Unplugged today. It's awesome!! They have Mr.Brightside!! and The Middle!! Go get it!

Went to school today again. Met Josiah and we walked to A601, then Shawn Chin and Solo popped up from behind the pillar to scare us. And Chin kept on zapping me...>.> Was moderately productive lah. Did integration and some maxima & minima stuff. Solo was distracted with DotA the whole time, playing it on the com. Mervin came around 12+ and then Jack, Andre, Kyaw Min came. Cheng En was came today too. Lol.

Then went out for lunch at 2. Bought back chicken rice and bubble tea to eat, met Ben and Bart in the hall doing Ben's coursework thingys... saw Chia and the twins playing frisbee in the hall taking a break from breathing in wood and saw dust. haha.

PC Show tomorrow? Hmmm....

Control The Clock

Time is running out. Really fast. Have to attain maximum efficiency from my study periods. Must get more productive, less distractive!!! It all boils down to now. This is the only time left to revise whatever topics i'm weak in. Gotta do it!

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Skipalong

So tired of feeling blue. So shake it off and make my way to somewhere different. And I'm gonna skipalong, quite merrily and revel in whatever's going on.

Knock Knock

"Knock Knock
When life had locked me out, I turned to you
so open the door.
You’re all I need right now its true.
Nothin' works like you."

Today was nothing interesting except for the little soccer friendly between 4SA and 4SB. I played like shit. It was freaking hot. Like a desert. Had chinese lesson in the lab in the morning. Haha played DotA for the 1st time in almost 2 years. Then had maths in our "newly airconditioned" class. Then went for lunch, had lunch with Mr. Lam, Bryan, Jerald and JK. Lol. Mr Lam treated us to drinks. Not bad eh.

Going to school tomorrow to study and revise. Anyone joining me in class?

My mind is confused now. Split two ways, and having feelings for someone i never really expected. Or maybe it's that kinda thing that disappears within a few days. I hope it is. But it has been on my mind ever since. Haiz...

We Will Not Grow Old

"Oh, we've got a long, long way to go

To get there We'll get there But oh,
if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old"

Lenka's music is so peaceful. It's has that very "stress removing" touch to it. I don't know what i'm saying. Yesterday had chem lesson in the morning, brought my bass to school to pass to Russell. Along with the amplifier.
Then we made another spontaneous decision to go jam for an hour. Jamming without a good drummer really sucks, which was what happened yesterday when we jammed without Jerald. It was like shit. Hehe.
After jamming, Adam, Russell, Matthew left. I followed Mervin to TPI to get collect his spectacles. Then i went off for chem tuition.

shadows of actions, actions of shadows

Met Mervin at TPI again later at 6.30pm. Took the circle line for the first time!! wheee...Bishan interchange is so huge, the concourse looks like an airport terminal. Circled down to Lorong Chuan to Eddy's Birthday. Had a BBQ there, then went up to his house for a movie until 11.30pm. Then most of us left stinking of bbq,

Today was kinda slack. Had chinese tuition in the morning. Watched Cinderella Man episode 12. Damn sad again. But some funny parts like the last part where Jaemin got owned. haha. (not that you guys know what i'm talking about). I did some planning for the weeks ahead, made revision lists, got a file from popular and Sims 3!!! WOOHOOO.

On a totally different note, i saw a shop called "DongDaeMun" on the bus. It has the same name as a shop in Cinderella Man!! Ok...>.>. But wth. It's the shop in the middle, with the korean words on it. cool eh?



And yep, my blogskin is done (done as in found one nice one, done as in i didnt make it myself)

Don't Let The Days Roll By

We have come to the end of the week. Sort of. One more lesson on Monday before the real self revision and mugging begins. And we have just lost one precious week. I think. I have yet to formulate some kind of plan...die!!. I should formulate one over the weekend.

Today was kinda fun. Had Chinese i the morning where she did oral practice and Yau had to read out the entire passage. Then went to Maths until 4.30pm with breaks in between. Mr Ng let us watch this local production called "Kallang Roar" which i thought was quite hilarious, although you could see the "ammateur-ishness" or the movie.

Russell trying to get into the shade...
Playing soccer/rugby/frisbee after lunch at 1.

Played soccer for quite a long time. Almost 1 and a half hours. wow. Was quite an interesting game and funny too. Crazy people doing crazy things. Bing Hui showcasing his soccerness skills haha. Then we had Pizza!!! I think there was enough for everyone. I had 5 slices. Watched a friendly rugby game between the C' Div and some American club. And also watched the sunset with Mervin, Bart, Adam.

from back to front: Russell, Mervin,Adam, Matthew (the 2/3 of FP.)

the somewhat nice sunset...

Apparently Mr Ng didn't need us helpers for tonights session so Adam and Bart followed me, after much persuasion, to go buy Sims 3. BUT!!! Can you believe that Toa Payoh Interchange doesn't have a freaking store that sells PC GAMES???? OMG. So we went to coffeebean and went back to school at about 8.45pm. I left after that for my aunt's house.

Bart and Adam on the bus, going to TPI

I still can't believe the first week flew by so fast. Like *snap!* and it just flew by. I'm should be going to sleep now. Got chem tmr. Sigh.

Just Enjoy The Show

Today was quite boring. Except for a few classroom antics in Chem class, Yau prank calling Calvin, pretending to be from China, Yau taking "unglam" pics of people in class. Didn't do much. Played soccer after school with Mervin, Adam, Mr. Ng, Arvind, Josiah, Bing Hui, Nin, Yau, Andre, Zul, Matthew. No night lessons today. So went to meet my mum at Parkway to help her by a present for my Aunt. Went to buy Sims 3 but it was out of stock! AHHH! Went home after that for dinner.

Ahh i feel like poning going chinese tomorrow morning sia. Sian already. Do listening compre test and i freaking failed. Even JK PASSED. Oh well.

Adam showed me this song. Lenka - The Show. Been searching for this song for so long!!! Heard it on the radio and on an advertisement before, i think it was Old Navy ad on tv. LOVE IT!!!! Sounds like Lily Allen and Feist.




10/10 WOHOHOHOHOHOHO OMGWTFBBQ. MERVIN LUCKY BASTARD.

Bernoulli's Principle. OMG WTF! BBQ?

"as the velocity of a fluid increases, the pressure exerted by that fluid decreases"

Bernoulli's law of pressure differential. Cool eh. Mr. Ng brought this thing up during the night class when he was doing abit of Physics. He held to pieces of paper vertically in the air, side by side, so that there was a gap between the 2 papers. He blew into the gap and the papers bended inwards. How? He was explaining but neither of us understood his explanation. Not even BART! Ooo.

Lol, went back home after, and Adam was researching into it too. Found out it was Bertoulli's Principle. Needed help understanding it, so he asked me to read it.

Bertoulli's principle applies to all fluids (air, liquids). Basically, the law of conversation of energy, helps simplify the entire principle. As a fluid travels faster, it's kinetic energy increases, which leaves less Potential energy within it to exert a pressure.

Thus, "as the velocity of a fluid increases, the pressure exerted by that fluid decreases"

Yay! Understooded! :O

More classes tomorrow, but can wake up a little later. And no night lessons tomorrow too. Can slack abit. Take a rest.

So today we went to jam between 5-7pm. Played Starlight again, not bad, made some progress. But we can't jam till next monday again cause Jerald's going to malacca. Have fun!!!

Some pictures from today....

Look who's more MAN. Wohohoho.

Night Class....

Mr Ng venturing into PHYSICS.

Ok. I really have to go off now. Must go watch episode 11 of Cinderella Man on soshified.com.

And Away We Go Into The Night.

More night classes all the way to 9pm. Actually I volunteered to help out with the night classes. It's fun in a way, hanging out until pass 8+. But i seriously think the night classes are not much help. Cause alot of the guys are kinda distracted easily. oh well.

Freaking freaking tired now. My eyes are half closed, or half open. Depends on how you see it :D. Haha. Had classes from 8am-1.30pm. Broke for lunch and class started again at 2.30-5pm. Then played soccer till like 6.30. Had dinner and came back for class at 7pm to 9pm.

Tomorrow have to go school at 745. SIANNNNNNNNZZZZZZ, and then the whole 8am-9pm process starts again .Wohoho.

I told myself, i would slack for the first 3 days of the June holidays. But somehow i'm getting that strange feeling that i should start working my ass off. I haven't even formulated a plan for revision yet...DIEEE! I think i'm gonna go ahead with the slack for 3 days plan. I want to get Sims 3, which came out today. Can't wait to go jam again another day. Russell should be buying my bass. GREAT...finally can offload it to someone useful. lol. Wonder how idiotic i will look carrying a bass to school to pass it to him.

I still have to figure out a good pic that represents me to pass to Ben. Hmmm... any ideas? I've got none.

Some photos from today and a few days ago...

Josiah and gang jogging. lol

and away they go

No idea who took this, but there's adam sick again. haha.

No idea what mervin was doing, or who took this photo.

And again, no idea what's happening.

Clayton at the salon, after we had our haircut the friday before chinese O's

Our Hopes and Expectationssss.....

So 2 weeks of mass chinese mugging from afternoon to night everyday culminated today. O Levels! So paper 1 was moderate la. For my standard i think can pass :D. Paper 2 was a little easy at first but got a bit tricky. Tuition teacher came over at 10+ to check out my answers for paper 2. Can get estimated about 39/70. Which is good enough for me. I just hope the bell curve don't kill me.

After the Chinese paper, went to macs for lunch with Russell, Mervin, Adam, Jerald and Matthew. Spent quite awhile there talking cock. Then passed 3 free Mcdonalds glasses to Adam. Lol. Then went to jam opposite school but it wasnt open on mondays. So we went to go LAN for awhile at Paradiz, met Solo, Edwin Andre and a few others. Played abit of CS and L4D. Then went to jam at another studio at the building next to it called POMO? yeah. POMO. till 6+.

Played Starlight which was not bad. Russell did well on the bass (sadly, i think it needs some effects...which is very EXXX!!!!). Mervin did not too bad on the lead guitar, considering that he learnt it on the spot. I did rhythm, thought it was so-so. Adam did the keys, which was good? I cant really tell the diff with so i think its good. Jerald was spasming on the drums, yeah starlight drums is really hard. Like left leg hi-hat, right leg bass, right hand low tom, left hand snare. Wohhohoh. he was sweating like a retard after that. Singing was fun, but really straining. Like really weird? haha need to do better falsettos on the "holdddd.......you in my arrmms" part. Gotta work harder on it FP.!! Oh and i love singing falsetto on Supermassive Blackhole. God its nice. haha. .

After jamming, Adam and Jerald left, Bryan wong and Solo joined Me, Mervin and Matthew for a Terminator. Which i thought was a shitty show. Solo was complaining how noisy the helicopter was in the show. >_>"".

So back to school tomorrow. Till 9pm! woots. Yeah, helping out with the night classes. Gonna be fun. I think. School again from tomorrow till next Monday. Also need to start planning my revision. Going for short holiday to Malaysia in the 3rd week i think. Hmmm not too sure.

Anyway i should be off to sleep now. NIGHTS!

(sigh) relieved to get chinese somewhat over and done with. (yeah there's still ORAL and LC). OMG!...

Oh ya, searching for a new blogskin now. hmmm.

No Regrets.

It's going to be one of those sleepless nights. I'm gonna have the nerves and not gonna be able to sleep tonight. Darn. Must sleep early. I hope i can. Get this over and done with. Pass it for my sake and (ok that didn't make sense) and to the other subjects!

No regrets. Nope. None.

End of Term feels strange.

For the first time, end of term felt strange. Like something I never experienced before. Instead of a "yay 1 month of immortality" it's like "oh great. 3 days to O's and 4 day's to mug all day long". Sigh. Whatever happen to the go out and really have fun on the last day of term? I guess it's all in good time.

We got our results slip back that day. Mr Ng was kinda lecturing again. I got 8th in level, highest ever. Wheee! Cause for celebration? Haha we'll see. Anyways to those who didn't do very well, 加油！ 성공!!! Just concentrate and focus and it shouldn't too hard. I still need to work to my 6pts target, kinda a long way to go still so let's not get complacent.

After that went to cut hair with Jerald and Clayton. Then went to N&B drink soya bean. Then went to Macs for lunch. Although i was the only one who ate...lol. Solo got a free glass from some random dude. Then went to TP with Adam and Mervin to do some stuff...lol. Then went coffee bean and talk cock and then went home. Slept. Woke up with abit of a cold. :(. Recovering now...or at least i think i am.

Tomorrow, wake up mug chinese. Or wait more like later today. Chiong chinese till about 6? then slack until 10. Sleep and hope for the best. I just want a pass. Then i can screw it already!

성공!!!

Fighting!

성공!

Lost.

I just had to blog this down. I needed to resort out some stuff. I couldn't keep it inside. I just couldn't. I wish i could tell someone but i don't really know who would understand me. I sound pretty emotional right now. Maybe i really am. I'm just lost. If you think its because of Chinese O's. Then you are right.

After studying Chinese for the whole day today, i just started to panic again about Chinese. I'm just nervous. But it's more than just nervous. Failing this would mean I might have to drop to B to save myself. Or take a risk and hope i pass in Nov. If i fail, i won't be able to go JC. That thought keeps lingering in my head. to the point of me breaking down. Like seriously.

I know i shouldn't be thinking of failing. Yeah, actually i shouldn't. I should concentrate on passing, which seems oh so difficult to focus on. Why? Why did i not take an interest in Chinese before? Why? Why only now? and it's already too late.

I'm seriously bummed out about this, and i just wish i could tell someone. But who? I mean, yeah call me emotional but did i just feel a tear roll down my cheeks? yeah i think i just did.

I know i need to work something out. I just cant imagine the sight of me not passing.

I can only concentrate now on working on my paper 1 for the next 9 days and just hope that it pays off. I just want a pass. It cant be that hard can it? I'm sure it isn't. I know i can do it. I know i can. I just gotta work things out carefully right now. And hopefully some motivation might help me. God...i just wish i could talk to someone who could relate to me.

Screw all those negative thoughts. (*slaps self for thinking of failing*) I can pass. I know i can. I CAN. YES I CAN! YES YES YES YES! I just gotta work harder now (not that i haven't already). I gotta focus on what i want to improve the most now. Which is getting my "baozhangbaodao" right. And if there's time, my comprehension.

I KNOW I CAN.