Lost.

I just had to blog this down. I needed to resort out some stuff. I couldn't keep it inside. I just couldn't. I wish i could tell someone but i don't really know who would understand me. I sound pretty emotional right now. Maybe i really am. I'm just lost. If you think its because of Chinese O's. Then you are right.

After studying Chinese for the whole day today, i just started to panic again about Chinese. I'm just nervous. But it's more than just nervous. Failing this would mean I might have to drop to B to save myself. Or take a risk and hope i pass in Nov. If i fail, i won't be able to go JC. That thought keeps lingering in my head. to the point of me breaking down. Like seriously.

I know i shouldn't be thinking of failing. Yeah, actually i shouldn't. I should concentrate on passing, which seems oh so difficult to focus on. Why? Why did i not take an interest in Chinese before? Why? Why only now? and it's already too late.

I'm seriously bummed out about this, and i just wish i could tell someone. But who? I mean, yeah call me emotional but did i just feel a tear roll down my cheeks? yeah i think i just did.

I know i need to work something out. I just cant imagine the sight of me not passing.

I can only concentrate now on working on my paper 1 for the next 9 days and just hope that it pays off. I just want a pass. It cant be that hard can it? I'm sure it isn't. I know i can do it. I know i can. I just gotta work things out carefully right now. And hopefully some motivation might help me. God...i just wish i could talk to someone who could relate to me.

Screw all those negative thoughts. (*slaps self for thinking of failing*) I can pass. I know i can. I CAN. YES I CAN! YES YES YES YES! I just gotta work harder now (not that i haven't already). I gotta focus on what i want to improve the most now. Which is getting my "baozhangbaodao" right. And if there's time, my comprehension.

I KNOW I CAN.

Chinese. Wohoho :)

O Level Chinese is in 10 days. 10. I just working as hard as i can now to get things straightened out so i can scrape a pass or better. I HAVE TO PASS. Nothing lower than a C6. I hope i can do it. No wait. I CAN DO IT.

Results don't matter do they?; 21st Century Breakdown; Photo Roll 3

21st Century Breakdown is EPIC. Wahahaha. You have to listen to it.
So we are getting our results back tomorrow. I have a bad feeling about it. But a good wake up call for me. The papers were tough. Some of them. But even if i screw this up, i think its better to now than during the O's. So must be positive and take it in good stride.

So the whole band got together for the first time! :D After the last paper. Russell(bass) , Adam(keyboards), Matthew(lead vocals), Mervin(lead guitar), Jerald(drums) and me(rhythm guitar). Haha it was fun, played a mix of songs, Russell can run bass which is good cuz i couldn't. We jammed again yesterday, then went Solo's birthday.

A few accidents happened. My phone, Shaunneh's phone and Solo's phone all fell into the pool. I was like totally effed up. 2nd time it happened to my phone. Only that the 1st it wasnt chlorine water, it was erm... nvm. haha. Fortunately managed to salvage mine under a hairdryer and a fan. Shaunneh's phone came round the next day. No idea about solo's phone. :( haha.

Chinese O's are 2 weeks from now. Hardcore chinese now. I just trying to scrape a pass. But lets try aiming for a b4? haha. They say it is better to aim for the stars and hit the moon, than to aim for the trees,and hit the ground. So let's do that. Harcore Chinese!! !WAHAHAHAHA. i hope. hehe. Wish me luck. and to all those who suck at your MT, good luck! Jia You!

Jerald gaying Barney

Adam when he was 5 years old

Can you see 2 stars? (clockwise from bottom centre) Jerald, Russell, Adam, Mervin, Me

Jerald getting a haircut. Look at his eyes. They are fixed on bio notes. Nerd. Wahaha.

Clayton sporting a new haircut. LOL.

Random Photo Roll 2

SNSD.

yeah. I have no idea what to name this post. Oh wells.
So i had enough studying today, did a mixture of subjects.
For some reason there's not enough time to study ALL the topics for mid years.
So you do what they call (or what i call) "Selective Revision".
I guess whatever it is, we are still aiming for the O's not the Mid years.
By calculation (when i mean calculation i mean argaration) I should have more than enough time to revise PROPERLY for O's if i start after the Chinese Papers.

(*Fingers Crossed*)
That the O Lvl chinese paper will be nowhere near as hard as the mid year paper we had the other day. That was a KILLER paper. I hope i can scrape a C6 for Chinese. Hah after the Mid years i'm going full CHINESE. MUST PASS!!! Or i don't know what i do. Like seriously. I probably drop to B if i get less than a D7.

Anyways, really stress now anyways. But SNSD fever keeping the stress from making me full go retarded. SNSD ftw! ahahaha...Hope can go South Korea one day. Because who cants to go to the North? Ok lame joke.

Ok so why am i posting you ask. Didnt I say that i wasnt going to anymore? haha. Because someone asked me too and i had some time.

I don't think this fulfils the criteria of being a Ch8 Drama.
I'd have to make stories up if i wanted it to be. hehe.
haha I should watch Chinese show everyday after the mid years. MUST! lol.

Kk enough for now lah. I think i shall post some pictures up from my phone another time. Just to keep this place alive.

Thats all for now.

Indefinite Definetely.

I might as well put this formally to a temporary close. Somewhat like an indefinite definite hiatus. Say...till the end of O's? haha.

I know i will prolly slip in a few update posts once in a while or just the spontaneous just for fun post. But blogging leads to being on the net longer, which leads to distraction on youtube and god knows where. haha. So i guess i will be gone for now. Till the after O's.

i hope one day you will realize that i was waiting for you. and that wait will be so worth it.

Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby

Know Your Enemy

1st preview of the new album, 21st Century Breakdown from Green Day!! :D:D

I need to get off Facebook.

Someone needs to shutdown facebook for the benefit of all those taking their O Lvls this year. Gah! I can’t seem to get off it. It’s like i’m doing work on the comp, and my mouse slides over to the facebook page on firefox and click! Oh gosh save me. It’s the ultimate procrastination machine. They should create some kind of “access facebook within the time you set” application. Then you have no choice but to only access it at certain times. haha. Maybe i should go create one. oh wait i can’t it’d be ironic. I’d be wasting my time. Lame –.-“

Went jamming during the holidays. 2 times actually haha. The “FuturePlan.” as we called our band. which is quite intersting. Cause we always been talking about forming one after the O levels. So we called it the “future” plan. You know like we already kinda chose who was gonna join us kinda thing. But oh guess what it took off a little earlier then expected haha. A new distraction. Not good. I guess it’s ok if you look at it in a “something i would do after i finish revising or doing work” kind of stress relief thing? haha.

Adam on keyboards :D , Jerald on Drums, Mervin on Guitar, Me on guitar and Russell on bass. O.o! yeah! lol. So the two times we went jamming russell couldn’t make it, but either way we made 2 recordings. I’m yours was ok, although i admit my voice could have been better. And we covered The Killers – When You Were Young just the intro part. It sounded very nice. We replaced the guitars with keyboards and i took the bass haha. Maybe i shall post them up soon :D.

Can’t wait for our next session haha!

My birthday is coming up soon…(*scurries and runs off to find hiding place with other march babies*) haha. I’m thinking of having a party at my house on the 28th inviting quite a few people over. Yeah can’t wait. haha.

And i really need to stop procrastinating on the internet. Like this morning i was like reading wikipedia on Power Rangers and reminiscing the good times when i was a kid who watched Power Rangers every day. Or wait it only aired on Saturdays on Channel 5 in the morning. And the days i had something on, my dad would have recorded that episode for it. I still have them on tape! haha. I loved the series. The Power Rangers now i feel is like crap. Its losing the essence. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers was still the best and i still vividly remember the days with me begging my mum to buy the megazords and making them fight each other until they broke eventually haha. Oh those days. haha.

HAPPY NOW ADAM!? is that long enough for you? hahaha….

Take this

<.> <.> <.> <.> <.> as opposed to this >.< >.< >.< >.< >.< >.<

It’s an inside joke. You won’t get it.

On a different subject,

Adam! Michelle Trachtenberg is acting in 17 Again. Now you have a reason to catch it. hahaha. And oh Mathew Perry too! (the friends actor who played Chandler Bing) and Zac Effron too. haha.

A term gone, a term closer.

So term 1 has ended. Which means, Chinese O Levels in 1 more term, the rest of the O Lvls in 2.5 terms.

March holidays is going to be more like a time to start planning the journey, planning the route, plotting your way to your target. 6 days as of tomorrow. 6 days to plan my revision list for O levels, to complete homework and to start my revision.

Basically the whole week is already burned out doing work and slipping in some time to relax abit.

I think as time draws nearer, my blog posts will be lesser and lesser. Perhaps "revive" after O levels or maybe the occasional "blog worthy" posts.

I'm off to school tomorrow again.

IKEA and GM?

Business Update; Just Announced - IKEA to take over GM

IKEA HAS ANNOUNCED IT'S INTENTION TO TAKE OVER GM, AND TO SELL CARS.

WE ARE IN DEEP SHIT.......................

Because the MR. A-Z is back!

Who would have known that after coming here 2 times in the past 2 years, MR. A-Z would be back here again tomorrow night. And letting those earlier 2 chances slip by was a mistake. HAHA but not this time!

I seriously can’t wait for tomorrow. It’s gonna be god like. epic. crazy. awesome. WAHAHAHA.

But damn, we have a phyiscs test tomorrow and one on friday

So that was 4 tests in 5 days this week. it’s retarded. REALLY.

So common test results update.

E Maths : A1

Chinese : B4

Comb. Humans : A1

Biology : A1

I’m worried sick now for english. I have no idea how bad i’m gonna do. I have a problem answering the paper 2 comprehension questions. But paper 1, i’m still quite there. If i fail this. I’m so gonna get help.

FLOORBALL 2moro? I HOPE!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

And recently, or actually not really recently, more like as the weeks go by, we notice more and more how crazy and retarded our chinese teacher is. She makes us stay back till 4+ even though lesson ends at 3.30. She tells us of tests like a min before the test. She expects work that would take an hour and a half to be completed in an hour. SHE IS RETARDED. I’m QUITE SURE our WHOLE class hates her. Now i miss Ms. Oei. WHY DID YOU LEAVE!?!?!?!?!?

Because SPA and Floorball don’t mix.

Took our Physics and Chemistry SPAs the other day. Actually took Chem SPA today. and Physics SPA last friday. Both went quite well in the end! :D. I guess we practiced well! haha. It gets really easy once u get the hang of it, which we should have after so many practices :P.

We played floorball in PE the other day. It was damn fun. Me, Adam, Mervin, Edwin, Arvind, Clayton formed a team. We were on a winning streak! haha never lost once! Renewed my love for floorball!! LOL DYING TO PLAY IT AGAIN!!!! hmm maybe i should join floorball in JC. damn why now don’t have sia :(.

So CTs are over. Slack now. Back to normal study life tomorrow. sigh. It never ends!!! HAHAHAHA. Might have screwed up English, although Combined humanities went rather well. Maths, hoping for an A2 or possible A1. haha. Chinese…PASS CAN LER!

Today played against Balestier Hill. drew it 2-2. SAD!. :’(

OMG! FLOORBALL FLOORBALL FLOORBALL!!!!! GAH FLOORBALL FEVER. I’m so hooked up on floorball. DIE!

FLOORBALL MADNESS!

FLOORBBALL!!!! GAH! I LOVE 1:31!

Yeah that’s about it. Watch that. Maybe you get hooked on floorball too! hahahaha. who knows.

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Hi there, it's been awhile.

It's been awhile Really no time to post and stuff. With soccer and studies and just studying again. 2nd day of common tests tomorrow. All studied up already. So yeah some free time now to post. Been reading Remember Me? By Sophie Kinsella.Really good book so far. Quite interesting. Lent The White Tiger to Jerald but he lost it. hahaha. Yesterday woke up and went to school to study with Jerald and Arvind for SS and History. Then Adam came at about 4. Me and Jerald went to play basketball for awhile after that. hehe. So that was all i think.

Last few weeks pass by really fast. Haiz... really spending too much time on facebook. Sigh. Been learning a few songs on the guitar, metro station's shake it and a few others.

Can i post another day? haha. Want to catch slumdog millionaire soon!

The White Tiger

I just finished reading the White Tiger by Aravind Adiga. All in all a very intriguing book about politics and corruption and how decency can still be found in a corrupt world. It shows you that religion doesn't create virtue and money can't solve every problem. the book tackles the issues of india's caste system and "the rooster coop" refering to how people find it difficult to break out from their caste and do something different for a change.

the story is told through the eyes of a servand Balram and his letters to the Prime Minister of China. Very interesting way of conveying the whole message. haha.

I highly recommend this book. Really really good book. Need someone to discuss it with. Jerald? hahaha.

Now That's Creativity

Will Someone Catch That Bug?

Friday:
There has been a flu bug going around lately. Well at least in my class that is. The bug's been going around and i think me and Yau just got it. I think it got worse when we played the match against St. Gabs in the rain. And yeah....28 mins in they postponed it. AGAIN! After the match took a shower at Andre's house. Then went for physics tuition. although I'm thinking of quiting. don't really find it useful or helpful. Went home after that, played left 4 dead for awhile then went to sleep.

Saturday:
Woke up in the morning felt a bit feverishy. But had to go to school for Chem. Took our stoich test which i thought went quite well. Then after that went to my primary school teacher's house for a little CNY gathering. Taught me for 3 years, pri 4 to pri 6. me and Yau were like just stoning cause i think we both caught the flu bug. Played kung fu chaos and Halo 2 on her xbox, ate pizza and sushi and just talked about Secondary school life, making fun of the little things haha. Went home around 6pm while a few of them stayed for dinner. I had to go home for a reunion dinner so yeah.

Sunday:
Woke up with a high fever. Went to eat bak kut teh still haha. Then went to see the doctor. Had a 39 deg fever. It died down abit already. I think it's gone. Have to go school tomorrow cause Andre, Ngai Thai, Zul and I missed a Chem SPA practice which we needed to take.

I hope there's someone with a butterfly net looking for that bug. DIE!!! I hope i didn't pass it to anyone.

Youtube Time

Just saw a trailer to this movie. Found it quite funny. Okay lah slapstick funny but still funny!
I wonder when it comes out in Singapore




haha yesterday Adam showed me this Youtube video of this guy playing Apologize on the Piano. Really really good. But also bad in a sense that it wasn't original haha.

How Anti-Climatic

So we were like so pumped up for the match. This mental coach guy came down to psych us up. Guess what? 10 sec into the match some lightning risk alert crap sounded. The games are all played at Balestier Hill btw. So yah. the ref didn't want to continue so we waited and waited for like 45mins for the overcast to subside but it didnt. Although there was no sign of lightning or thunder or rain in that period. then after that the ref postponed the match. zzz. Oh and thanks Nin! for showing up and supporting us! hahaha

Next game on friday against St. Gabs. Hope it goes well! they are one of the tougher opponents. So yeah.

Just Leave Those Doubts Behind You

tomorrow will be our first game of the season. haha. damn nervous!!! Playing against Clementi Woods i think. Anyways have to miss Chinese class (not that i enjoy chinese class but the thought of missing lessons scares me abit. O'lvls this year leh!) and we have to miss one of our chem spa practices! (NOOOOOOO! but this one she will have to give us a replacement).

Have another game on friday! Then 3 more games in the next 2 weeks! then hopefully we qualify for the next round. haha.

Added a little thingy at the side bar of books i plan to read or am reading now! hahaha. just for fun! hehehe.

"It's just your doubt that binds you, just drop those thoughts behind you, now."

Love this quote. It can be simplified into "just do it". which always applies to everything in life. And mostly for me, in the academic sense. So yeah. Don't doubt yourself, cause it holds you back. Just drop those thoughts behind you and move forward!

Sim Lim Square is FILLED with Theiving and Cunning Dealers

I was at Sim Lim Square on Sunday after tuition to go check out how much my Samsung is worth cause i really want to get rid of it. Turns out all the people there are thieving and cunning. The guy offered me 250 for it. And he wanted my phone now. then i said ok...can i bring it back tomorrow? i need to transfer some stuff from the memory. Then he sais if you bring it back tomorrow i can only offer you 200. And i was like -_-. And he was like "yah phone price eveeday dop one" and i was like nvm thnx anyways.

The next shop i went to was even better. The whole time the guy was like...sure! we'll give you 300 for it! i was like omg thats great! and after checking through some phones they were also selling...(brand new ones) so i can make a trade in perhaps? then i told the guy...erm what if i dont make the trade. and he was like "oh we only make trade ins. we don't give cash" and i was like -_-.

All the time i have been at Sim Lim square, be it buying a psp or whatever. The dealers there are really out there to get ur money and leave. I cant take it. And its usually the very "ah beng" dealers.

There's one shop that really stands out and i always go there to get my games, mouse, mouse pads, xbox peripherals and stuff. Techdrome or something like that. located on the 5th floor. The guy there is really friendly. There was once, i bought orange box, he gave me some freebies along with it! hahaha. So i always go back there now!

Anyways, on the way out i saw this poster on drink driving. I thought it was kinda cool and creative.

Anyways that was Sunday.

Now for Saturday...hmmm.

Went to Chem class in the morning. Then after chem all of us went to "bai nian" Mr. Ng's house. hahah. Played games there and ater vegetarian ba kua. and it tasted interstingly weird. haha. Spent 2-3 hours there. After that around 10 people went to play Left4Dead at Lan but i had tuition! NOOOO!Then popped by Jerald's house to bai hahaha. Collected ang pow there. Then played his guitar awhile. then left went with jerald and arvind to borders cuz Jerald desperately wanted me to go. a reason i still don't know why. haha. So went lor. then after that went chem tuition gah. hahaha. After chem tuition went back home. Then immediately went to my late grandma's house for some "reunion" CNY thing. My grandma passed away in Dec only so yah. Went there met up with relatives, collected ang pows woots. Then went home. haha

Friday now. hmm. Met up with the IA guys. Had to help the new batch of IAs which was kinda boring haha. Then had dinner with them at Pastamania. We were walking through Citylink after that and there was actual human poo on the floor. like chunks of them on the floor stretching from the Shokudo to way past Adidas. yuck!

So now thursday.

Went to study with adam after school cause got half day. So we went to buy mervin's present first while a group of them went futsal. I had a sorethroat so i didnt feel like it. Went to esplanade Library to study. the tables were all taken up. So there was this cafe with comfortable seeting and it was kinda empty. We decided to pay3 bucks for the freaking coke so we could sit there! hahahaha. Then Adam's friend Gillian came to study too. Although became abit distracting after awhile but managed to revise stoichiometry. haha. Then my mum picked me up! yays!