I'm having a really weird pain in my stomach area. It hurts and I can't sleep. So i'm on my bed stoning, with my laptop.
Was really really bored, so went to read the older posts from my blog and Adam's blog. It's kinda funny when you look back. You get that very nostalgic feeling. A bitter sweet and warm feeling or sensation. When you look back at the past, memories and stuff. All the stupid things you have done.
When i was reading the posts, looking back at how we came to slowly prepare ourselves for the O's, i truly miss those times where we studied together, played soccer together after studying, procrastinating together. Haha. Having lunch together in the middle of studying. I remember those Chem lessons on Saturday very clearly. After chem lesson, we would have lunch chit chat about O's and random stuff, then we'd go back to school to study/slack and stuff haha. I remeber those times where we tried to convince each other to go jam after studying. All those times at POMO hahaha. Those were good times. lol.
I remember very vividly a period at the start of the year where i had a falling out with Arvind, looking back at things, haha i can only laugh at myself and the whole irony of the situation. It seems that i have learnt so much from this incident and that things can only be looking up from this day on.
All the quarrels, disagreemets, laughter, enjoyment that all of us had together while studying, i will truly miss. All the friendships that i have forged and strengthened over the course of the year, let's hope they remain tight, if not stronger.
However, there are things that have happened over the year that make me sad. Because i'm trying to fix it now, but its not that easy. A falling out with a group of close friends that i kinda neglected. I'm sorry guys and i hope that you will forgive me. I hope that things can return to normal before its too late and all of us move on.
It's all the little stuff, that we tend to miss out, that we will dearly miss when we part. Getting emotional now is kinda strange, because it seems i'm one of the few who get these weird sensations. Maybe i attach myself too closely to some stuff.
We are nearing the end of a very very fruitful year i must say, and it makes me sad that some of us will part ways. But i hope that wherever we go, we will always cherish those memories that we share and make the last forever.
I'll have to make a promise to myself : Whatever happens next year, I'm not gonna leave you guys behind. I will, to the best of my ability, remain best friends with all of you guys. <3 you guys :D
GAY GAY GAY.
