Random Thought 1: What Happens if i go to VJC
Ok this would possibly happen if i do get 6points - bonus points. It would be like jumping of the top of a building and hoping that there would be a net at the bottom. Or so it seems to me. Everyone's been telling me to go to a better JC if i can do it. Well, let's just say i do get 6 - bonus points. VJ would be a fresh start. It definitely would be. After all, it has the CCA i want to join badly - floorball. The college life there seems pretty decent too, and its near my house which cuts travelling time to 10mins. 10MINS! I really want to go there. But there's something very strong stopping me from doing that. After 2 very memorable years in sec3 and sec4, I can't bear to be split up from all my friends i've made these 2 years.Unless of course they do well and join me (i doubt they would join la). As i think of this, i can't help but let my mind wander into the future, like in the next 5 years or so. Would my circle of friends remain tight as ever with the people i hold close now? Would they remain my best friends as they are now? Anything can happen, on my part and theirs. I just can't bear to take that risk and let time do ther rest. It scares the living shit out of me.
Random Thought 2 (although not so random anymore): What will happen if i go to SAJC?
Well firstly, i want to join a sport which SAJC cleary doesnt have anything i would possible join. And i don't count ODAC as a sport. And i don't think i want to play Goalie for soccer? Save myself from further embarrasment endured this year. Furthermore, so many people been telling me not to go SAJC and some of them are from SAJC. They really meant it, like if they had a better score they would have gone elsewhere. I can't say for sure now that if its true. Maybe it isnt that bad, but i'm sure there's a big difference in the environment in SAJC and VJC. Something tells me it would make a big difference if i chose one for the other. All i know is that i will definitlely be with all my friends there. and plus the uniform is like coooool... But who knows what may happen there? I may make new friends and they may make new friends and stuff.
Something tells me that if i do have to make this decision, i would tear myself apart doing so.
Maybe its best that i don't get 6 points and save myself all the trouble of deciding between the two. It would definitely make life much more easier for me right.
After seeing my older bro being commissioned as an officer, i am inspired to become an officer too. But i guess that would all lie in how i handle future challenges. One of them would be coming very soon wouldn't it.
I really don't know how i'm going to actually decide over this. Suddenly there's a really influencial force that's pulling me towards VJC (even though i quietly ruled out VJ during the past 3 months or so because i felt so deeply attached to the people around me) somehow other things are falling into play and i don't how it's gonna turn out.
I think the following kinda mean something to me now...
"Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul"
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul"
